I've been wondering...

Do near death experiences mean that there's a reason why you're still alive, that there's something you still have to do before you die, or are they just good luck? I'm not talking about getting pulled out of the way of a speeding car sort of experience, I mean like baffled doctors saying "she should not be alive" sort of experience. That's happened to me once. It was because of alcohol poisoning. Eight hours after I stopped drinking my alcohol level was at 0.26, people go into comas at 0.35. As for the reason, let's just say I wasn't partying, but I also wasn't trying to kill myself. I wonder if there's any way that my mind or my body, or maybe both, knew that and that's why I didn't die. Kind of like how hospital patients often die when they've decided that they've had enough and don't want to live anymore. I do still believe in God, and I can't help but wonder if maybe he kept me here because he has a plan for me that I haven't completed yet. That's a comforting thought. Of course I probably won't go looking for that special thing I'm supposed to do, if it's worth saving me for then I'm sure it will show up on it's own. Then again, it could just be coincidence. I'm pretty sure I just made a complete circle and got nowhere. Haha, of course it's not really a question that you can answer in certainty so I don't really know where I was hoping to end up in the first place. Anyway, I don't want to obsess over the moment, but if you've ever had a brink of death experience like me then you know it changes you dramatically, and it's hard not to imagine that your life has a meaning when you can't explain how you're still breathing in the first place.